Maid

I guess almost everyone having problem with their maid. I had too but somehow it is not so bad and I can handle it.

But today, it has reached my limit. I am not a parent who will let the maid in charge 100% on my kids. I have my parent to monitor and taking care too. They are just there to help. 

All this while, Aqeel has never been so close with the maid. We make that rule. We just dont want him to be close that when she wants to go back home he will miss her until he sick. It just not right.

But today, out of sudden, he is so clingy to the maid. Maybe because the maid always carries him. Of course I cannot carry him because of my current health situation, but when she carries him, it made them close. My mom is already old to carry a 13 kg boy.

So today, when the maid wants to sent my niece to Islamic school, Aqeel cried. He said he wants bibik. So my mom called me to come down hoping that when he sees me, he will stick at me (like usual). However, he refuses having me around and instead chooses the maid. It just makes me feel so sad that with my condition, the kid does not want me anymore. Or maybe it is because of my sensitive feeling lately. Oh I just dont know what will happen once i give birth. Is it gonna be worst than this??

So i called the husband and reported to him what had just happen. He promised that during these 4 days public holiday he will take care of the kids by himself and bring them out so that there is a gap between the kids and the maid.

Thank you dear husband for being so understanding. I guess every mom would have this kind of feeling too. It's like somebody taking over your kids and the kids love them more than you.

Hemorrhoid Part 2

As promised, this is the continuance of my hemorrhoid story.

The next day after the surgery, he doctor checked and said that the cut he made is already close and the hemorrhoid is still there.  But the hemorrhoid does not look so tense. So he asked me to immerse that area in hot water mix with salt so that the hemorrhoid will shrink.

The next follow up will be this Friday, and if the hemorrhoid is still in the same condition, the surgeon advice me to do early delivery. So it's gonna be week 36. Hope everything went well.

In my case, the reason hemorrhoid exist is due to the pressure from the fetus on the abdomen and hormonal changes cause the hemorrhoidal vessels to enlarge. Delivery also leads to increased intra-abdominal pressures. Surgical treatment is rarely needed, as symptoms usually resolve post delivery.

The total bill is RM2k and alhamdulillah it was all covered by Maybank.

I have a family who support me in many ways. My dad offered to give me a ride and he even pull my wheelchair. He's been running here and there to pick up his granddaughters as well as taken care of me. My mom, in the other hand without hesitate offered to handle my two kids and sleep with them so that I can rest. She also worn me not to carry the kids as it will bring pressure to that area. My husband, beside the busy schedule he had in the office, he still be by my side. Knowing that i miss the kids very much, he will bring the kids up to the room very often.


Alhamdulillah, syukur that I have family who is concern about me. I love them very much too..

Hemorrhoid

Yes. I am having it right now during my 34 weeks of pregnancy. Some people might feel embarrass but for me heck no.

I started having it on Friday. The hemorrhoid is as large as 1 inch. So what i did was applied the cream called Neo Healer every now and then. It is a herbal cream and you will feel a bit of airy and cold. It is supposed to shrunken after a few times applied the cream. But in my case it is not. So i went to see mu gynae and she gave me a bullet medicine called Suppotory. I used the medicine for 3 days and on the Monday night after i put the medicine, blood coming out. So the next morning I went to see my gynae and she referred me to General Surgeon. 

Alhamdulillah the doctor is very nice and concern. Supposedly I cannot claim the medical chargers under insuance. However, upon registration, he wrote that this was not due to pregnancy. So hooraay!!..At least I don’t have to be worried about the money..

Subsequently, he checked through the hemorrhoid and found out that it is quite serious. There is already blood clot. He advice me to do minor surgery right then in his room.

I am pretty freaked out since he said its gonna be painful as he need to injected me with pain killer at the area. He gave 4 injections and he cut the hemorrhoid so that the blood clot can come out. He did not stitch because he afraid that the blood might stuck there again.

The pain is so damn painful. I was shaking badly as i have to be seated on the wheelchair and do the registration and admission all by myself. Of course the nurse is around to help me, but I don’t have the pleasure of lying on the bed and rest to avoid pressure at that area. Can you imagine, right after surgery you have to sit and put the pressure at your bottom for an hour before everything settled?

I must say that the pain is so much worse that the pain of delivering a baby. At least after i deliver, i lie down all the time and am given pain killer. But this time no pain killer was given as i will affect the baby. The only thing i can take is only panadol..

Why i have to do the registration and admission myself?
Because the husband had a meeting in the morning. I did not even thought that i gonna need a surgery. If not i would definitely asked him to cancelled everything. So i asked my dad to give a ride to the hospital. He waited with me to meet the surgeon and left me there to pick up my niece at Smart Reader Kids. So yup i am alone during the surgery. He reached hospital back when i was almost done with registration. So did my husband. I was crying at the registration thinking of the situation that i am facing and the pain that i have to bear. The staff at the counter just did not want to care of my condition even though the nurse accompanying me already informed her that i was in pain and just go through a surgery.

Readers, i will continue in part 2. The post is to long already and I'm in pain.